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The reason.

Why i havent been on blogspot is becos' i switched to tumblr, ya'll should get it. Tumblr is way better than this haha sorrry.

----Follow me : misza.tumblr.com/

Love.

Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times.
Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve.

And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you’re through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.

But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.

-

“It just bothers me because you never really do know if he cares or if it’s just a facade. He could tell you that you’re his “only one,” but how do you know he won’t turn around and say it to someone else too? Relationships are hard and a lot of people say that it doesn’t work without trust, and yeah, that’s true. But I think in order to be completely head over heels, you have to be willing to be stupid. You have to be willing to fall.”

This.

i want a boy. who gives me butterflies everytime i look at him and make it last, makes me smile at every little thing he does, look at my texts just cause he misses me, doesn't give in completely, make the whole thing interesting, knows how to make me chase him but at the same time knows when to give him. i want.. that boy.

True shit.

everybody has three lives: a public life, a private life, and a secret life.

Fact !

BAD is when your CAPABLE of BEATING the BADDEST

Guilty.

“No matter how hard you try to get over someone, you will still have some sort of feeling for them, remembering the ways things used to be, and how they are now. And you sometimes hope that the new person in their life was still you, and everything was how it used be, erasing all the bad things that happened. Time is supposed to make things better, but in love it doesn’t. Although we have been apart for a while, and now have different loves in our life, I still can’t help wondering how your life is, and when I catch you glancing at me, I can’t help but wonder if your heart beats a little faster, as mine does when I see you.”

I feel guilty feeling this way.

Fact !

"The one that is meant for us is going to be the hardest to get, the hardest to keep, and the hardest to accept because through all that the love will grow stronger. Love wasn’t made to be easy, otherwise we wouldn’t end up with the right person. We would end up with the first one who comes along. By struggling we single out the wrong ones and realize who really is the one."

Baby.

I'm FALLING for yu :D

Fun.

HAHAHAHAHA. So fun :D
YAYYYAYYYAYA !!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally.

Ready to give yu my heart, give yu everything from me. Im sorry if i havent gave yu my all, i guess i wasnt really ready to be with someone again. Seems like yu wasted your time, but baby yu didn't i really do have A LOT of fellins for yu BUT i guess i was afraid to give yu my all, coz i was scared, i was just scared to love yu. But baby i realize a lot and now im ready to actually be in a realtionship with yu. I love you baby. I'll give yu my heart, just promise yu wont ever break it. I trust you.

Love <3

Love isn’t about the romantic nights or gifts. It isn’t about fireworks going off around you when you have that first real kiss. Love isn’t about kissing in the rain and dancing beneath the stars. It isn’t about the big moments or the big surprises. Love is not a fairytale. Love is about still having the butterflies after years. It’s about the second looks and laying in bed wide awake, all night, because you can’t go to sleep mad at each other. It’s about being willing to sacrifice, literally, everything for someone, just because you care so deeply for them. It’s not about buying them gifts, but it’s about leaving them little presents here and there, just to remind them that you are constantly thinking about them. Love is about all of the little things, that add up to really big things. Love is rare and special, but should not be treated as if it will break. Love needs to be thrown around and beat up a little bit, worn in, but not worn down. Love needs to be a comfortable feeling, a place to go when no one else in the world can relate. A safe place, where you know that no matter how ugly you look or how angry you are, you will still be loved.

This was my feelings.

Now i don't know.

I dont understand myself at all :[ I can say so many fucked up shit to you. Do so many fucked up shit to you. But in the end, i regret everything ive done. I feel bad & i feel guilty. But still, i continue to do it over and over again. Sorrys are never good enough. I deserve everything thats happening right now. I deserve to know the fact that you cant be with anymore. I deserve not being able to call you mines anymore. Everything happening now, is all because of me.

I was blind to see that i wasnt showing you the same exact feelings you showed me. I was blind to see what i had right in front of me was something good. I was blind to see that i was loved by somebody who treated me like a queen. I was blind to see that the guy right in front of me gave me their all. I was blind to see that love was standing right in front of me. When ive finally come to see what i had, its already gone.

& Now im here, sitting heartbroken. Sad & lonely. Ive lost the only person that mattered in my life. My whole world revolved around you, and stupidly, i never showed it. Theres so many things i wish i could have done from the start. If i could go back in time, id go back to where we first met. Treat you like a king. Show you love, give you love. Make sure you are never going to let go. If only if only…

I wish i had another chance to prove you wrong. Too many times ive said i can & i will. I admit. Though, i really want that chance. Im so lost without you. I know i can prove to you that i can show you the meaning of real love. Give you more than i can offer. Treat you like no other girl can. Show you the finer things in life. Prove to you i am the girl of your dreams. Make you trust me once again. Show you honesty and loyalty. Cater to your every needs. Be there when you need me. Give you a shoulder to cry on. Tell you how much you mean to me, and how much i love you every minute. Give you tight ass hugs , and kisses which you would remember a lifetime. Hold your hand tight and never let go. Be a part of your heart, and will always remain there. I want to steal your heart away and never give it back, because you’ll always be with me. <3

Sorry.

Im sorry if yu think i really meant it davin, i really didnt mean it. Yu took everything in the wrong way really =( im so sorry. I really dont want to lose yu anymore, but i guess i really did now. I broke our friendship ughh how stupid i am im so sorry =( please forgive me.

Blahhhh.

Fuckkkkkk this. Getting ovaaa' YOU no matta' how hard it isss !!!!!!

I did you wrong !

These past few months, days, hours, and mins. I still think of you every single day'cos theres always something that reminds me of YOU! Always. Theres never a day where your out of my mind. Your like stuck in my 24/7 like how i'll always will love you 24/7. Hmph truth be told even when im with my boyfriend i miss you &' he knows that i do and i feel really bad, but hey its not my fault i just love you so much. I love you davin and i love my boyfriend BUT no one could evaa' love me the way you do theres NO ONE !!!! & I promise you that i will never ever forget you..............I STILL LOVE YOU DAVIN VIERNES =(

Still.

I still love you for some reason =(
Even if i miss yuu i bet yur not missing me. If i cried a million of tears would yu come back to me ? Yu are the love of my life davin. Yu truly are, im never goen' to give up on our love. If yu ever come back to me damn' well i would be happy to be with yu again. Matter a fact i wouldn't have to think twice i would just say yes ;]. I really dooo love n' miss yaa chokest hawww -___- there's a lot of things that remind me of yuu.

I MISSS YUU so muchh.....

.........March 24, 2008 @ 12:04 am

Inevitable.

That's what you are to me.

Replay.

Your like in my head non-stop. It never ever stops, you replay in my head everyday now days =( i guess it's a sign that my heart still believes in you, believes in US again. My friends miss us together. Honestly i do to, my heart tells me that i can't be without you, that i can never be the same without you. I try and try to become who i once was but i end up failing. But me im strong i won't evenn give up...........

I DONT KNOW ANYMOREEEEEEEEE !!!!!!

I LOVE YOU
March 24, 2008 12:04 am.
For'eva n' Evaaa' <33333

Feenin'

For one of those "V" ahahha yaaaaa arlex >;p
Stupidddd fakkka i miss yuuu ass !

These days.

Then one of these days, I'll be so sick and tired of the bullshit. And if that day ever does come, it'll get too far & I'll be gone. And you'll never have me the same way you once did. We'll both look back and wonder why we wasted our time being so foolish. Wondering why we couldn't just be at bliss. We'll laugh at ourselves and hope to God that it isn't too late. But it never will be.

Jose [Ho-zay]

Theeee only boy that ain't even getting on my nerves nowadays x)
hahahhaha. Thankkkksss jose for not making my day get any worser lols.

Yuuu the MANNN' ahhaha >;p

.....,I miss my boy friendddd !!!!!!!!

Feeeeelin'

Hella fricken sickkk....& i reallly hate it right now. My head really hurts, my tummmy hurt, and mostly my throat.!!!!!!!!!! Grrrrrr Bitches don't fuckkk with me right now. I ain't in the fuckin' moooood ErghhhhH !!!!!! Getttin' Irratated righttt nooowww. FUCKK yuuu U and UUU .

Delirious !

“You make me delirious
That’s when I start to fall
Something serious
When you look in my eyes
You make me delirious
That’s when I start to fall
Something serious…”

Seee what yuu do to me baby ;]

ANYTIME.

......I LOVE YOU

Alwaysz.

There's always going to be a time when you think about your first love because there always going to be in your heart. Today i thought of you, i cried in front of my boyfriend just thinking about what we had before and how we were in love before. Hmph but i smiled and looked at my boyfriend cos' he makes me happpy than ever n' i really do love thid boy =) Yay....... I love yaa' to davin alwayz but not in loveee if yaa get it. But wateversz i just had a thought bout you today n' stufff btw; i miss yaa n' yur fam <3

BYEEE

Ehh,.

I should just shoot yuu hahahah >;p
Just kiddding.......

Fuck school x__x


BYEE
i love my boyfriend !

STFU.

I hateeee youu bitch.!!!!!

Fuckk.

Fuckkkkin' errrkin forealsz, time for youuu to leave behbeh boy.
ughhhhh. bizounce......
HAHAHHAH

fuckin' fuck faceeeee.
erggghhh fuckkkkkk youu

Just cos'

I smile =)
doesn't mean im happpy =(

..........
Hmphh

Let's just be

Promises.

It shouldn't be made when youu know it will be broken .

I've made a l0t of promises and i admit, i broke a lot of it. So now days i don't make much of promises before it ends up gettin' broken n' i hurt someone -___-

blahhhh !! "/

Slide.

Im always saying it's okay, im always saying its alright, i put the pain away and i let it slide. -___- but it ain't right because i turn around and let it slideee. FUCK LOVEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
whyy am i always in pain ? ??????

NO NEED !

Ahahahha she ain't even a competition taaaa' me. You ain't evaa gonna get on my level NEVER EVER !!!! hahahah you can try buhh youu nevaa goenn reach it.

Fallin'

Moree n' Moreee f0r my b0yfriend ;)
i loovee lovee that boyy.
hehehe i had funnn withchaaa t0daysz again babe.
yayy. hahhaa

my back fuckin' hurts fr0m thaaa p0o0l today erghhh fuckk thaa buu'shiit lols.
wellsz yaaa' byeee
bitches.

"Yes"

That's my answer, i do miss youu s0metimes.
im beeing really h0nest with you........& there's times when i think im still in love yaa'.
yaa yaa aino i still l0ve youu, not in love.

butttt.
"True love doesn't have a happy ending because true love doesn't end."
True love, Never dies.

Last

Night was funnnnn, thats all i gots taaa' say =D
hehehehe.
B0yfrieeend madee my day <3

[WHS]

Graduati0n tonightt yeee' hahaha
YAY f0r my cousin, congratsz cuzzzz' =)

L0gan-chandler Hamasaki Sugi0ka
hahahhahah youuur irrtaiting at times, buhh youu still make me happpy =)

AHS - 09'

Going to there graduation tonight YAY !
hahaha this beeettta' be fun, last years was alright i gueesss.

Wells today was OMG i was like dead today, i slept like everFUCKIN'class
haha never sleep til' 3 cos' idkkk wasnt even tired i guess, only small kinee buh idkkk
hahaha.

wells yeahsz i don't know what to blog about right now, i'll blogg tonight maybe idk haha.


BTW; Im happpy with my boyfriend <3

Blogger.

Is getting bored to me tumblr.com is like the same but i think that one is like wayy better I THINK ? buwahhahaha. I wanna switch to that cos' My BLOGGER has like choke memories about *you it's good, but makes me sad when i see it read it but happy at the same time i guess?

blahhh think 'bout switching so yeahsz if i do.
Imma update you on here to let'chaaa knowww....

GOODBYEE blogger, HELLO tumblr MAYBE lolsz..

Truth.

Be told; Logan makes me suppper happy n' i love him for that haha,
NOT IN LOVE. but i love him =)
My boyfriend issss theee best !
Logan-chandler ♥ is putting a smile on my face nowadays YAY ;
It was good seeing you today babe, fuckkin' [HAMMAH'z] i swear shit haha



hahaha
hahaha =)

you the best baby yeee'

BYEE !

Weeeeee !

June is here, damn' these months are going by reallay fast haha cheee'
oo0000oOO00 09' is graduating yay, congrats to the class of the 09' from waipahu-aiea and pearl city, much love. hahah Summer is here to, YAY ! school is almost done, it doesnt get any better haha. But me i have summer school eww, ehh gotta go what you gotta do to grad yeeeno'
yeee' hahaha, i feeling so much better, fuckkk your life DONT FUCK WITH MINES !. *you ain't letting me down boo' trust me you ain't letting my gaurd down.....good your happy im happy to boo' hope everthing goes grrrrreat with youuu, cause im having fun haha. i still love you tho' always and forevaaaa' + immma' be here til' the end of time trust me on the im here for youu hahah .

wells bell gonna ring so byeee !

baby.

Just yesterday i saw you two, tears ran down my face. But i just turned and walked away.

Buwahahah.

The EX' Lane >;p

**

I need to be happy with what i have right now, but it's the fact he's NOT YOU !
i need to realize he's just not you .

Away from you.

-------Blahhh, i can't get away...

Fact.

Truth be told; I'm doing fine...Really.

But sometimes for some odd reason, i kinna feel like you miss me ? That's what i think i'm not saying you do but that's what i think. Aino i miss you, we don't even talk anymore n' i don't really like that. What ever happen to "We'll always be Best Friends no matter if we aren't together" what happen to that. It's really sad if i do lose this friendship with you, i don't ever wanna lose our friendship. Just cos' we aren't together don't let that ruin our friendship yeeno ?

But yeah things change, things come and go, we lose people we love the most, but we can gain new ones. But i don't ever want to lose you.

Yeee'

Yesterday was fun at carnival =)
Hahahaha. Rode Zipper likke choke times with my cousin. Shit some funny shit forealsz, my fricken ph0ne kept flying all ovaa' the damn' place. I hit my lip on the thing then i bump my head on my cousin head hahaha so halarious ;p We rocked that shit so goood. Wooo0Ooo LOLS so fun. Was kinnna errked but i didn't let that bother my fun lols.

=)

so funn...
ahahahaha

Above all.

He made me realize never give someone your all especially, when they don't know what they want*

"Losing you has forced me to learn !"

Brokkkkkennn !

Gettting hurt by you once again is just to much for me to handleee. I fuccckin' OMG miss you. It makes me cry so much now that you have someone youu. Omgoshh idk, sometimes i feeel strong thinking you will realize, but fuckk deep d0wn inside im only saying those things when it aint truee, im to weakkk i can't let go of you davin i can't. IM SOORRRY I JUST REALLY LOVE YOU. Aino better in time i'll git better i hope i do. Im not even over you.

hawww idk i can't even try right now, crying and crying don't do any bettter.
byeee.

i love you davin,

Way back.

Hmmm so i came across one of my old blogs and i found this.

Most relationships tend to fail not because, The absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much and the Other was being loved too little...

So here's a piece of advice:Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love Isn't enough, And move on when things are not like before.. For sure, there is someone out there, Who will love you even more...

You will never forget your first love...
Thats what makes it so special...
You love so hard...
So deeply...
And so intensely because you don't know any different...
Its best until its over...
Then you hurt like you've never hurt before...
And eventually you will love again...
But you love more differently...
You love more carefully...
More cautiously...
Just know there is so much more love waiting for you...
But there will always only be one first...

Davin i hope shes makes youu happpy, i hope i did when we were together =)
u better have been happy with me hahahah. Just know that you will NEVER find nobody like me.
n' SOMEDAY YOU WILL REALIZE !

D0nedealsz'

NOT ANYMORE !

Yes, NOT ANYMORE this isnt' gonnna happen anymores. When i reaalizeee what i wanted, things go worse. I wanted youu because things felt so much betta with you agains things were going so well between me and you. Then i git' fuckin' hit to the fuckin groundddd with what you had told me. All this time i wanted youu, then i git this in returnnn fuckkked ovaaa' I loved you oh so much. Youu finally decided what youu wanted, and it's for youu to see other people n' not try once again with me. Youu decided what you wanted, i decided what i wanted buhh it i was very wrong....... Im so dang hurt right nowww. But it's okkkeh. I thank you for everything we have been through even tho' i told you this today, i wanna tell you again. I thank you for hurting me it makes me even stonger. I thank you for everything...............I hope you realize that i did whateveer it toook, chosen you ovaa' someone just to see if things would work again between us two. Butt idk i guess i was wrong. I ain't doing this anymoree, even if you know that we both can't help it =( i wouldnt want to do this to myself anymore, just gettin' fuckin' HURT ! i realize i do deserve better than this, but youuu i chosed you to go through this pain because you were worth it and you still are. But i just can't do this anymore. I really do love you davin, i really do i always did, even after the mistakes you made and i made, i realize you were the one for me.
I'll always remember what we had davin, you'll always be the one that i'll miss, you are forever painted in my heart 'FIRST LOVE, NEVER DIES" I'll always be here whenevaa' youu need me ohkehh davin, i'll drop everything just to help youu out. I'll always lovee youuuu n' be here forr you. and i hope you do thaaa samee BF4LB' <3


I LOVE YOU DAVIN KEKAIMANA VILLANUEVA VIERNES <3
......always n' forever !

To Angel.

angel, i know you really love davin. because all of the memories that youh & him have together, but youh have to think. choosin logan could go either ways, he could bring youh even more memories or he could end up hurtin youh in the end and youh might realize that youh should of chosen davin. but also chosin davin over logan could go either ways, if youh and davin do get back together he might realize that he might do what he did again or it could have meant all youb guys needed was a little break, but follow your heart because your still young and the nperson your with now doesnt exactly mean thats the one your gonnah be with but if davin is really the one then you'll know but angel youh cant make a wrong decision because everything in life happends for a reason. you mayy feel regret like i did, but i feel happy now. in time everything getsz better, so just use your mind wiselyy, and follow your heart not your brain. dont rushh and take thingsz slow.


♥ Tiare (Best Friend)

*Neww

Should i reeally choose to move on and experience someone new ? Hmmm..what to do ? youu want me to try something new and thats what youu want me to do. But see i don't want to do it cos you want me to do it, i have to decide for myself not you decide for me. This reminds me of my friend, He told her "if you love me, you would go out with him" She only did it because HE wanted her to do it, and i know for a fact she did'nt want that, right now she still loves him..... N' i don't want to make that mistake by you tellin' me to do something i don't want to do. I'm afraid of losing you, im afraid of losing him. I don't want him hurt for me choosing you over him. But see it's want i want to choose nor one of youu can choose for me. I swear doing these things with youu both, just hurts me in the end realizing that i can't being this anymore n' have to decide what i reeallly do want. But i don't know what i want. I want you n' i want him. I love you, I like him. You make me happy, he makes me happy..........


I can't do this anymoreee...
i can't =(
ughhhhhh....

I DONT KNOWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Deekay.

Is ALL MINES bitch ! Not yours !!!!!
Fuckkkk yeeemann', my mann' is betta than yours :P
haha he's not mines buttt bitch pleaseeee... i still got mad love for my baby :]
buwhahahahahhaah

BYEEE....
Tonighttt betta' be funnn, so farr things are going goood i guess, wells cept that stupid fight -__- fuckin' dumb. Babe didn't want me to stay at pearls anymores so he droped me h0me, thanks babe....bought his vans, and his friend his scarf your welcome jarenn LOLS bitchhh... !
nahhh......

bbls....
ilovedavin <3 ahhahaa...
alwaysss...

but i like you o___0

Not ready !

The things you do boy just makes me happy. Really happpy :)
When im with you, i feel so happy just seeing you. When we touch i feel so happy. When we kiss i feel so dang happy nothin' else mattersz. When this happens i always feel like were back together again But were not, it's because were both not ready to be together again in a RELATIONSHIP ! idk if there's a differents haha, but i guess you can say where takin' things really sloww. N' i like it that way. Buhhh fuckk whats so confusing is that i like you.. and i don't want to hurt you. I wanna be with davin again, but i wanna be with you. "What's a man to do When he's loving two But he can't keep his heart In two different places"
I like him, but i love you...........Torn in between you TWO. I love you davin, you was always there for me, n' i love being with you. You changed me into someone different in good ways. I like you, you can make me smile and do somethings that i really like about you. you idkkk damnn'

I HAVE NO IDEAL WHAT I WANT

I have no ideal,

What i want =(
n' it stresses me a wh0le lot..... i can't handle this shit anymore, it's always gettin' to me when i know it isn't suppose to be. I miss you so dang much n' i like you yes wheeeeww i admited it i like you ! that's the truth i never told anyone till' i knew it was right to know that i like you, But the thing is i still love you hmph. My best friend told me why aer you doing to this to me, making me feel like yours again over n' over........But like we both said or she said, you d0n't know what you want, you still love me but you just don't want to be with me. & i find that reallly trueee. I think you do still have feelins' for me still love me, but you just don't want to be with me. See you just d0n't know what you want. N' i don't either, i mean i like this boy but your in the way. I love you a lot, i still do. But i like him. I can't have two people to myslef i have to only choose ONE ! and i don't know what to choose, ? .........

I just have no ideal, what i want

Davin, MY LOVE DON'T STOP !!!!!
just like that song.

Goshh.

Wtfuckkk ?! i fricken can't stop thinking about you, missing you, loving you, I fuckin' still l0ve you =( i guesss i still need you, still want you. I miss you so dang much baby :( I had bettter days so much better days. N' now today im breaking down and realizing i can't even let you go...It's to dang hard....Omgosh im like going so crazy right now. I woke up cryin' knowing you werent even mines. Damn' i miss 'US' i really do. We still say our 'I LOVE YOUS' every single fuckin' day. n' i fuckin' mean that shit from the bottom of my heart. Ahhhhh idkkkk my head hurtss as fucccck

ahhhh blahhh.

Someday.

You'll REALIZE !!!!!!

Baby.....Love

when you love someone so much, you need to learn to let them go at times to prove if you really love the person a lot.


:]
For you i will !

Haaaa?

"The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring. "Shawna Waltemyer"

3 sess'

Woooooo Hooooo ! so goood today ;)
i love'd it, spent time with the ex-b0yfriend .
it was so much fun hahhaa, we watched twilight n' yeeeah so on n' on :D

i love that boyyy, i still love him <3
damn' hahahaaha Muuuuuuuuuuuah i love you davin forevaaa' n' evaaa'
He's the FUCKIN' best i evaaa' HAD !

Maybeee one day we can git back together hehe, but as of right now things are getting better between US, i mean still feels like im your 'girl' but yeahsz hahaha ....

I LOVE YOU <3

<3

Muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuah
I LOVE YOU ! <3
hahahah ;p

c0nfused.

I've been that way for way to looong. i seriously have no idea what i want -___- i really miss being with you so dang much, it's so hard letting you go. i need you, i want you, i wanna try all over again with you =( this is so hard for me, it really is. hmmmm' i just can't handle n0t talkin' to you, i always tell myself not to talk to you but' i end up d0ing it. Everywhere i go , whatever i see, whatever i hear, there's always s0mething that reminds me of you. It's like your with me where ever i go, n' it true cos' your in my heart where ever i go. Ughhh i just d0nt know.

=(

i love you davin <3

For 'Love'

So what do you do when the person you love is the reason behind all your pain? When things aren't the same anymore & you constantly see yourself striving to maintain a perfect relationship? When you no longer trust that person because their words continuously contradict their actions? Have you ever felt this unbearable pain in your chest, but think to yourself that the pain is worth it because in the end you are still with that person? Whenever they are out, you have a million of ideas just clustered in the back of your mind. You try your best to trust them, but for some reason you just can't. You want them to do little sweet meaningful things, but yet they don't. You find yourself so infatuated with this thing we call "love" that you isolate yourself from everyone & everything you once loved. But in the end, is it really worth all the trouble & sacrifice?



............you were worth the pain, & you still are.

.............

MY LIFE.........

I never thought,

it would be so HARD letting you go.............

It's so hard to lose the one you love
To finally have to say goodbye
You try to be strong but the pain keeps holdin' on
And all that you can do is cry
Deep within your heart you know it's time to move on
When the fairy tale that you once knew is gone

He said....

Someone told me that someday you will realize that you shouldve never let me go, although i hurted you much more than you hurted me. But you broke my heart even more. I gave you chances you gave me chances. That person told me that if you forgave me for cheating on you, you'll forgive everything we have been through, he said you forgave me because you truly did love me, the type of love that me and you had was like no other's....Getting hurt by you made me a stronger person, and i thank you for this. You helped me find my independent in me. Im going to try and not let this pain get to me anymore, im stronger than this pain. He had told me that there's better things in life than just one boy....He had told me to just stay single in high school and have fun. because i wouldnt have to think about that person im with, i wont be on lockdown, i could go where ever i wanted to go, do whatever i can do without any interruptions. But then again he said that i'll feel lonely sometimes but hey were still young and there's going to be better things out there for me once i grow up. I'll let things be what it is although it will hurt me a lot. He told me if i loved you i would let you go and not talk to you if you try and do talk to me, he told me that if your talking to me it's because your thinking about me, and maybe miss me....... But i won't let those things get to me anymore, he told me im stronger than all of this. He said that im only hurting myself cos' im still in love with you. He's saying im really confused because of the things you did to me that other day. It's because your making me think about a lot of things, breaking my heart even more. He said one day you will realize that i really did love you like no one ever did, and i hope that one day you will realize you lost someone to great that hurted you but did whatever it took to get you back again, you'll realize trying to get over me didnt work cos' you actually did love me. He said im strong, but i told him i weak, he said im only weak because im letting myself getting hurt & that's true. He said im making things so hard for myself because of LOVE. It's like im desperate for you and i think i am, its just your love thats why. He said just leting you go would be the best thing to do to make you REALIZE.

&&&& i hope you realize, i truly did love you, i never meant to hurt you and im sorry from the bottom of my heart. so i hope you realize.

thanks for everything davin. you made me a stronger person, although its gonna be hard letting go ill try just so i can be happy once again. where's the good in goodbye, i don't wanna say goodbyee NEVER. I really hope thing go well for you davin. I'll always be here for you davin, i always will .......your my best friend ;] & i'll always love you.

Do you ?

Ahhhh, talk about confusing :/ You still make me feel like im your 'girl'. Im so confused with youu, i still love you. Do you still love me ? But then you like her ? but then you go n' do things and make me think twice in the end do you really still love me. We both couldnt help it and just did it, you know why ? huh ? cos we still love eachother thats why. and i know you still love me, but you don't want to get hurt anymore, you wanna have fun. Look how much space im giving you........Yesterday seeing you made me so happy. Cos your always the one that can always put a big smile on my face :D i honestly don't know what you want, and i don't think you know what you want also. To be with me again and prove to you im different n' did change or be with HER* if you love something, set it free; if it comes backs it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was. i like this quote, i set you free so good things can fall into place, and it is a little, but about this quote is the part where "if it doesn't, it never was." Damn' that means we weren't meant to be blahhh, idk i know me and you were meant to be. We loved' eachother so much, we hurted eachother to much, but it showed that we did really care about eachother.....i just wish we could fall in love again && but nobody can understand the love and bond that we both share together.

MY MISTAKE.

..........Is never forgotten.

You say you cannot forget
And you aren't ready to forgive
But I need your friendship
More than you'll even know
I need you there to live

Without you by my side today
Life's been going, oh so slow
I miss your calls
Our endless talks
The places we would go

You can't even bear to look at me,
And I know my mistake
For because of one night,
And a few thoughtless actions,
When you saw me you ran and hid

I know we cannot take it back
As much as we would like to
But we could forget
And start all over
Just friends, that's me and you

If time is what you need,
Then I guess that's what you'll get
But I need you there for me soon,
My friend.

[F.M.L]

WORD !
fuck the buu'shiit forealsz, fuck this, fuck you hahah nah nah.
just FUCK LOVE !!!!!!!

Dwelling.

I hate dwelling on all the times we had =( it fucking hurts to dang much, dying inside and out but not showing it, cos' im not trying for you to ler my gaurd down, but i guess im fucking failing on this shit i fucking hate it to dang muhhh, i don't want this anymoreee.....seeing you like her and shit, seems like i don't care but trust deep deep down inside HURTING , breaking apart -___-

...........you took our forever and ever AWAY.

Why?

........FUCK THE BULLSHIT.


BUT STILL I FUCK'IN LOVE YOU AND SHIT SERIOUS >_____<
WHY IS IT LIKE THIS. HAHA DAMN' IM JUST FOOLING MYSELF OVER AGAIN.

S.C.W.

Today Shoulda. Coulda. Woulda. BEEEN
1 Year & 1 Month "/ = 13Months.
being with you.......
Best Friends forevaaaa'
so HAPPPY 13 Months best friend..

blahhhh.

IMY; & ILY;

Wow.

"Welll seee, at lease you told him and not keeept it a secret .Thaas good that you tell him errythang, even yur mistakes =) I do that tooo, i tell Timmay errrythang even if itll make him upset cos as long as im not keepin no secrets he'll always love me (;"


^^^^^^^
Isn't that cute in a way haha, my cuzzo' is so lucky/BLESSED :D hahaha.

Sometimes.

"We need to face the hard part of reality even though it'll hurt. But in time it will get better and fall into place the way its meant to fall."

in other words.
TIME TO TIME:
"If you love someone, let it go. If it comes back, it was always yours."

IMY DKVV
I'll never give up on "OUR LOVE"
.....NEVER !

Breakdown.

Davin i hope you take this to heart, i put a lot into this. It's not really organized, i jumped from one thing to another haha i may repeat myself over and over haha but just read, and i hope you appreciate this...........

Selfish yesss i can be. I notice that, damn' i mean it's really your choice to like someone and i know you do. It's so sad that you do like someone. There's absolutely nothing i can do about it. i can't stop someone from liking someone else. i can't make someone like me back. i can't turn back the hands of time. i can't just sit here and wish for things to be the way they used to be. Once i knew that you liked her my heart dropped like outta no where it's like someone pulled it out n' just crushed it into pieces. Im hurting oh so much, you dont even know foreals. I mean i understand that you want to see other people but like damn' why ? I wanted to work things out with you to make things better, to prove to you that i will do want you want me to do to not put this relationship to an end. 1 Year like nothing. But i guess it did, you didnt even take the time to try and make things to work out ONCE AGAIN but i guess you gave up on me, fell outta love with me, couldn't put up with my bullshit anymore. Im afraid you will fall in love again like seriously. You had a type of love i NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER had, i miss being cared by you, Being hold by you, Being kissed by you, and most importantly i miss the feeling of being loved by you. I ADMIT I CHEATED, don't know why i did it but i do regret it, nothing that i can do or say can change it, come back please. Im afraid of loosing you completly, i already lost you as my boyfriend n' i dont want to lose you anymore not at all. But see you were the person that RE-OPENED my heart and proved that love was here for me, this is why your my first love. You broked my curse like how i broke yours. Now that we arent together, my heart shattered into pieces waiting till maybe one day you can put it back together again. Hmmm i really miss you a lot. I really do, i miss sleeping on the phone with you everynight. I miss you being in love with me, i miss you being mines. I MISS YOU period ! I loved you for who you were, you were never a show to anyone. I loved you completely, you gave me this unconditional feeling inside that feels so good, Never in my life had I felt this way for someone like I do for you. Ive been happy latly but i would be more happier if you were by my side, but now that you like someone, it's like everything is done you've move on from me that hurts so much......But you moved on really fast we only broke up this month n' this month you like someone ? hmmmm why ?! why so fast ? Makes me think did you really care about me ? damn' it would take me months and months just to try and move on from my first love, but to you it's like wow damn' wth?!.........Im sorry i care and love you so much ! Why do i care so much ? There's many reasons why. You should know why, and if you don't damn wth?! your a really sepcial person to me honeslty. You say you arent worth it, but you really are, you mean a whole lot to me. Your my better half. I feel like im in a mess being without you, people notice that about me nowaday. Im sorta not the person i once was when i was WITH YOU. People tell me "What ever happen to that girl that always had a smile on her face, n' i knew it wasnt fake" ? I answered "She's gone, maybe just maybe she will come back" I put YOU before myself, but then i can be selfish and think of ONLY myself yes aino that, but i really do care a lot about you than myself. Tell me not i SACRIFICED a whole lot for you. I lied and lied just so i could see you and be with you because i loved you, i cared so much about you. I couldnt even handle a day being without you. I always made time for you, i always did have time for you, when im with you nothing and NO ONE else mattered, cos' the person next to me(you)was all that mattered to me to the most. Hmph the things i did for our love. You made me the happiest girl evaaa' and now idk anymore...... Losing you means I would be losing a very significant part of my life. and i lost you. My heart holds a special place for you. I'd be empty without you, nothing. I can't picture me without you anymore. It's utterly impossible. But look now ? im not even with you anymore, n' it's hurting so dang much. Im really sorrry for anything and everything, ive done to ever hurt you.... Im in a mess being without, a lot of people notice it. I can't conceal it. Its like Im silently screaming, Even though Im totally surrounded, I feel like Im in here by myself....It's like im dying inside, crying inside and no one knows it but me. Im stuggling with everything......i need you back baby. It's like me and you didn't even try We just said goodbye We let this love here die And never looked back In my mind, I'm still questioning why Promises turn to lies Feelings bottled inside When the truth be told I......I'm still wondering What if? What if? What if we would've worked out I believe we could've worked out If we worked a little harder Still imagining What if? What if? What if we would've worked out I believe we could've worked out Worked a little harder Yeah, if we worked a little harder...... You tell me to give up on you, but like what i told you.... NEVER DID & NEVER WILL. and that's one thing im not gonna fail in. No matter how hard it's gonna take ill do whatever it takes just to get you back in my arms once again. Baby my heart ain't complete, you got me all up on my knees, cos' i dont wanna lose your love.... you finally gave up on us. you gave up on us. that hurt to know you didn't wanna try anymore. i was so lost and still am when you gave up i was frustrated and hurt crying and crying. i shouldn't set myself up for pain, once more. why am i still hoping you'll catch me, when i know you won't? Just please take this to heart baby. I really do want us back together again. I'll prove to you ill be better...............Truth be told, you are THE ONE. I love you with all my heart, and hope our love can happen once again. I guess I'm still not completely over you. I love you Davin. Always did. n' always WILL !.........iloveyou

OMG.

I LOVE YOU <3
hahahahah :D
muuuuahhh.....
I love Davin Viernes woooo hooo.

This Bitch!

Bettter not be fucking talking about HIM* psssst fucking stupid bitch betta step the fuck away. Ainokea if he ain't mines no moree bitchhh you best believe n' bounce. Ughhh you try get with him oh hell no ughhh so fucking messed up BIG TIME. Yahhh i admit immma' get jealous shiiit but fuckkk im getting so fricken pissed right now -___- immma' start ballin tears D; fuckin' bullshit this kinee. Better not be him you talking about girl. Erghhhhhhhhhhh FUCK YOU !!!!!!

peace !

Baby your LOST !

you've lost a precious dime, n' you just went off to a penny...........
tsk tsk tskkkkkkkk... haaa'

Or in this other bitches words.
a dime is what you had, but a worthless penny is what you got.


.......i thought the feelings would last forever but instead it became a never ever

How?

Am i going to prove to be better for you again ? How to make you feel the way you once felt before ? How to make things good between us. How to get us back together once again?

I just miss yoou so much, seeing you yesterday made me really happy, but hearing those things from you make me cry, made you cry. Why did it end up like this? I wish we could back to the days we use to be. I loved how we where together and did things that werent suppose to happen. But like i said it's cos' you still love me but not IN LOVE with me. I just wish you could feel the same way again. I miss US, i miss YOU ! But all i can do is wait, wait till things to hopfully get better. I want things to get better between US not including no one else. I dont wanna see other people it would feel so different. My life without you is so different really different.


All im saying is i hope you can feel the way you felt before, i love you n' miss you baby <3.
ALWAYS !

Im not giving up on you, never did NEVER WILL !

So there's

This boy yes Davin Viernes <3
i miss that boy so much !!!
I won't evaa' forget you since day one :D

Oh how i wish i learned from my mistakes, but baby im willing to wait for you, if it's want you want to know i'll get you back. But it will be hard. I'll do it for you though i'll always love you babe.

I Miss You & I Love You.

Ergh.

I really do miss US. Hurting as FUCK !. ugh teachers comming bye.

"I wish we could go back to the days, we use to be"

Missing you.

I MISS 'US' 032408.

a tear comes to mind, when i think of you
and remember the time when our friendship was new.
a gentle smile centered on your face,
and i knew that then was the time and place,
to kiss you,
i did and felt a tick back in my heart.
i thought we’d be forever and never part,
but now we have come to a fork in the road,
where we must no longer carry each other’s load,
let the burden off our shoulders and not leave a scar,
for the paths we are taking are very far apart.
i will remember always the places we went,
and cherish forever the time we’ve spent.
so now is the time where i say goodbye,
spend one last minute lost in your eyes.
as much as i know that we can’t stay,
i hope our paths will cross again some other day…
- derek del barrio

Holy FUCK!

Its april already ? damn' been slacking on blogs seriously hahahha. n' Holy FUCK. my baby's default oooooweeee heccca fineeee hahhaha.... OKKAY WTF?!

anyways my spring break is going goood, been goign out mostly err'dayy wooohoo YAY. so funn haha. ewww school is almost here damn' at least we have a couple months of school yeeno YAY not choke months ughh thats so errking. going summer school sucks but i want to yay. haha hardly gonna see babe but he'll COME TO ME hah like how i came to him that whole fricken summer. so its your turn babe hahahahah......

anyways im outt :D
catch chu laters !