Breakdown.

Davin i hope you take this to heart, i put a lot into this. It's not really organized, i jumped from one thing to another haha i may repeat myself over and over haha but just read, and i hope you appreciate this...........

Selfish yesss i can be. I notice that, damn' i mean it's really your choice to like someone and i know you do. It's so sad that you do like someone. There's absolutely nothing i can do about it. i can't stop someone from liking someone else. i can't make someone like me back. i can't turn back the hands of time. i can't just sit here and wish for things to be the way they used to be. Once i knew that you liked her my heart dropped like outta no where it's like someone pulled it out n' just crushed it into pieces. Im hurting oh so much, you dont even know foreals. I mean i understand that you want to see other people but like damn' why ? I wanted to work things out with you to make things better, to prove to you that i will do want you want me to do to not put this relationship to an end. 1 Year like nothing. But i guess it did, you didnt even take the time to try and make things to work out ONCE AGAIN but i guess you gave up on me, fell outta love with me, couldn't put up with my bullshit anymore. Im afraid you will fall in love again like seriously. You had a type of love i NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER had, i miss being cared by you, Being hold by you, Being kissed by you, and most importantly i miss the feeling of being loved by you. I ADMIT I CHEATED, don't know why i did it but i do regret it, nothing that i can do or say can change it, come back please. Im afraid of loosing you completly, i already lost you as my boyfriend n' i dont want to lose you anymore not at all. But see you were the person that RE-OPENED my heart and proved that love was here for me, this is why your my first love. You broked my curse like how i broke yours. Now that we arent together, my heart shattered into pieces waiting till maybe one day you can put it back together again. Hmmm i really miss you a lot. I really do, i miss sleeping on the phone with you everynight. I miss you being in love with me, i miss you being mines. I MISS YOU period ! I loved you for who you were, you were never a show to anyone. I loved you completely, you gave me this unconditional feeling inside that feels so good, Never in my life had I felt this way for someone like I do for you. Ive been happy latly but i would be more happier if you were by my side, but now that you like someone, it's like everything is done you've move on from me that hurts so much......But you moved on really fast we only broke up this month n' this month you like someone ? hmmmm why ?! why so fast ? Makes me think did you really care about me ? damn' it would take me months and months just to try and move on from my first love, but to you it's like wow damn' wth?!.........Im sorry i care and love you so much ! Why do i care so much ? There's many reasons why. You should know why, and if you don't damn wth?! your a really sepcial person to me honeslty. You say you arent worth it, but you really are, you mean a whole lot to me. Your my better half. I feel like im in a mess being without you, people notice that about me nowaday. Im sorta not the person i once was when i was WITH YOU. People tell me "What ever happen to that girl that always had a smile on her face, n' i knew it wasnt fake" ? I answered "She's gone, maybe just maybe she will come back" I put YOU before myself, but then i can be selfish and think of ONLY myself yes aino that, but i really do care a lot about you than myself. Tell me not i SACRIFICED a whole lot for you. I lied and lied just so i could see you and be with you because i loved you, i cared so much about you. I couldnt even handle a day being without you. I always made time for you, i always did have time for you, when im with you nothing and NO ONE else mattered, cos' the person next to me(you)was all that mattered to me to the most. Hmph the things i did for our love. You made me the happiest girl evaaa' and now idk anymore...... Losing you means I would be losing a very significant part of my life. and i lost you. My heart holds a special place for you. I'd be empty without you, nothing. I can't picture me without you anymore. It's utterly impossible. But look now ? im not even with you anymore, n' it's hurting so dang much. Im really sorrry for anything and everything, ive done to ever hurt you.... Im in a mess being without, a lot of people notice it. I can't conceal it. Its like Im silently screaming, Even though Im totally surrounded, I feel like Im in here by myself....It's like im dying inside, crying inside and no one knows it but me. Im stuggling with everything......i need you back baby. It's like me and you didn't even try We just said goodbye We let this love here die And never looked back In my mind, I'm still questioning why Promises turn to lies Feelings bottled inside When the truth be told I......I'm still wondering What if? What if? What if we would've worked out I believe we could've worked out If we worked a little harder Still imagining What if? What if? What if we would've worked out I believe we could've worked out Worked a little harder Yeah, if we worked a little harder...... You tell me to give up on you, but like what i told you.... NEVER DID & NEVER WILL. and that's one thing im not gonna fail in. No matter how hard it's gonna take ill do whatever it takes just to get you back in my arms once again. Baby my heart ain't complete, you got me all up on my knees, cos' i dont wanna lose your love.... you finally gave up on us. you gave up on us. that hurt to know you didn't wanna try anymore. i was so lost and still am when you gave up i was frustrated and hurt crying and crying. i shouldn't set myself up for pain, once more. why am i still hoping you'll catch me, when i know you won't? Just please take this to heart baby. I really do want us back together again. I'll prove to you ill be better...............Truth be told, you are THE ONE. I love you with all my heart, and hope our love can happen once again. I guess I'm still not completely over you. I love you Davin. Always did. n' always WILL !.........iloveyou