This was my feelings.

Now i don't know.

I dont understand myself at all :[ I can say so many fucked up shit to you. Do so many fucked up shit to you. But in the end, i regret everything ive done. I feel bad & i feel guilty. But still, i continue to do it over and over again. Sorrys are never good enough. I deserve everything thats happening right now. I deserve to know the fact that you cant be with anymore. I deserve not being able to call you mines anymore. Everything happening now, is all because of me.

I was blind to see that i wasnt showing you the same exact feelings you showed me. I was blind to see what i had right in front of me was something good. I was blind to see that i was loved by somebody who treated me like a queen. I was blind to see that the guy right in front of me gave me their all. I was blind to see that love was standing right in front of me. When ive finally come to see what i had, its already gone.

& Now im here, sitting heartbroken. Sad & lonely. Ive lost the only person that mattered in my life. My whole world revolved around you, and stupidly, i never showed it. Theres so many things i wish i could have done from the start. If i could go back in time, id go back to where we first met. Treat you like a king. Show you love, give you love. Make sure you are never going to let go. If only if only…

I wish i had another chance to prove you wrong. Too many times ive said i can & i will. I admit. Though, i really want that chance. Im so lost without you. I know i can prove to you that i can show you the meaning of real love. Give you more than i can offer. Treat you like no other girl can. Show you the finer things in life. Prove to you i am the girl of your dreams. Make you trust me once again. Show you honesty and loyalty. Cater to your every needs. Be there when you need me. Give you a shoulder to cry on. Tell you how much you mean to me, and how much i love you every minute. Give you tight ass hugs , and kisses which you would remember a lifetime. Hold your hand tight and never let go. Be a part of your heart, and will always remain there. I want to steal your heart away and never give it back, because you’ll always be with me. <3