baby.

Just yesterday i saw you two, tears ran down my face. But i just turned and walked away.

Buwahahah.

The EX' Lane >;p

**

I need to be happy with what i have right now, but it's the fact he's NOT YOU !
i need to realize he's just not you .

Away from you.

-------Blahhh, i can't get away...

Fact.

Truth be told; I'm doing fine...Really.

But sometimes for some odd reason, i kinna feel like you miss me ? That's what i think i'm not saying you do but that's what i think. Aino i miss you, we don't even talk anymore n' i don't really like that. What ever happen to "We'll always be Best Friends no matter if we aren't together" what happen to that. It's really sad if i do lose this friendship with you, i don't ever wanna lose our friendship. Just cos' we aren't together don't let that ruin our friendship yeeno ?

But yeah things change, things come and go, we lose people we love the most, but we can gain new ones. But i don't ever want to lose you.

Yeee'

Yesterday was fun at carnival =)
Hahahaha. Rode Zipper likke choke times with my cousin. Shit some funny shit forealsz, my fricken ph0ne kept flying all ovaa' the damn' place. I hit my lip on the thing then i bump my head on my cousin head hahaha so halarious ;p We rocked that shit so goood. Wooo0Ooo LOLS so fun. Was kinnna errked but i didn't let that bother my fun lols.

=)

so funn...
ahahahaha

Above all.

He made me realize never give someone your all especially, when they don't know what they want*

"Losing you has forced me to learn !"

Brokkkkkennn !

Gettting hurt by you once again is just to much for me to handleee. I fuccckin' OMG miss you. It makes me cry so much now that you have someone youu. Omgoshh idk, sometimes i feeel strong thinking you will realize, but fuckk deep d0wn inside im only saying those things when it aint truee, im to weakkk i can't let go of you davin i can't. IM SOORRRY I JUST REALLY LOVE YOU. Aino better in time i'll git better i hope i do. Im not even over you.

hawww idk i can't even try right now, crying and crying don't do any bettter.
byeee.

i love you davin,

Way back.

Hmmm so i came across one of my old blogs and i found this.

Most relationships tend to fail not because, The absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much and the Other was being loved too little...

So here's a piece of advice:Let go when you're hurting too much. Give up when love Isn't enough, And move on when things are not like before.. For sure, there is someone out there, Who will love you even more...

You will never forget your first love...
Thats what makes it so special...
You love so hard...
So deeply...
And so intensely because you don't know any different...
Its best until its over...
Then you hurt like you've never hurt before...
And eventually you will love again...
But you love more differently...
You love more carefully...
More cautiously...
Just know there is so much more love waiting for you...
But there will always only be one first...

Davin i hope shes makes youu happpy, i hope i did when we were together =)
u better have been happy with me hahahah. Just know that you will NEVER find nobody like me.
n' SOMEDAY YOU WILL REALIZE !

D0nedealsz'

NOT ANYMORE !

Yes, NOT ANYMORE this isnt' gonnna happen anymores. When i reaalizeee what i wanted, things go worse. I wanted youu because things felt so much betta with you agains things were going so well between me and you. Then i git' fuckin' hit to the fuckin groundddd with what you had told me. All this time i wanted youu, then i git this in returnnn fuckkked ovaaa' I loved you oh so much. Youu finally decided what youu wanted, and it's for youu to see other people n' not try once again with me. Youu decided what you wanted, i decided what i wanted buhh it i was very wrong....... Im so dang hurt right nowww. But it's okkkeh. I thank you for everything we have been through even tho' i told you this today, i wanna tell you again. I thank you for hurting me it makes me even stonger. I thank you for everything...............I hope you realize that i did whateveer it toook, chosen you ovaa' someone just to see if things would work again between us two. Butt idk i guess i was wrong. I ain't doing this anymoree, even if you know that we both can't help it =( i wouldnt want to do this to myself anymore, just gettin' fuckin' HURT ! i realize i do deserve better than this, but youuu i chosed you to go through this pain because you were worth it and you still are. But i just can't do this anymore. I really do love you davin, i really do i always did, even after the mistakes you made and i made, i realize you were the one for me.
I'll always remember what we had davin, you'll always be the one that i'll miss, you are forever painted in my heart 'FIRST LOVE, NEVER DIES" I'll always be here whenevaa' youu need me ohkehh davin, i'll drop everything just to help youu out. I'll always lovee youuuu n' be here forr you. and i hope you do thaaa samee BF4LB' <3


I LOVE YOU DAVIN KEKAIMANA VILLANUEVA VIERNES <3
......always n' forever !

To Angel.

angel, i know you really love davin. because all of the memories that youh & him have together, but youh have to think. choosin logan could go either ways, he could bring youh even more memories or he could end up hurtin youh in the end and youh might realize that youh should of chosen davin. but also chosin davin over logan could go either ways, if youh and davin do get back together he might realize that he might do what he did again or it could have meant all youb guys needed was a little break, but follow your heart because your still young and the nperson your with now doesnt exactly mean thats the one your gonnah be with but if davin is really the one then you'll know but angel youh cant make a wrong decision because everything in life happends for a reason. you mayy feel regret like i did, but i feel happy now. in time everything getsz better, so just use your mind wiselyy, and follow your heart not your brain. dont rushh and take thingsz slow.


♥ Tiare (Best Friend)

*Neww

Should i reeally choose to move on and experience someone new ? Hmmm..what to do ? youu want me to try something new and thats what youu want me to do. But see i don't want to do it cos you want me to do it, i have to decide for myself not you decide for me. This reminds me of my friend, He told her "if you love me, you would go out with him" She only did it because HE wanted her to do it, and i know for a fact she did'nt want that, right now she still loves him..... N' i don't want to make that mistake by you tellin' me to do something i don't want to do. I'm afraid of losing you, im afraid of losing him. I don't want him hurt for me choosing you over him. But see it's want i want to choose nor one of youu can choose for me. I swear doing these things with youu both, just hurts me in the end realizing that i can't being this anymore n' have to decide what i reeallly do want. But i don't know what i want. I want you n' i want him. I love you, I like him. You make me happy, he makes me happy..........


I can't do this anymoreee...
i can't =(
ughhhhhh....

I DONT KNOWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Deekay.

Is ALL MINES bitch ! Not yours !!!!!
Fuckkkk yeeemann', my mann' is betta than yours :P
haha he's not mines buttt bitch pleaseeee... i still got mad love for my baby :]
buwhahahahahhaah

BYEEE....
Tonighttt betta' be funnn, so farr things are going goood i guess, wells cept that stupid fight -__- fuckin' dumb. Babe didn't want me to stay at pearls anymores so he droped me h0me, thanks babe....bought his vans, and his friend his scarf your welcome jarenn LOLS bitchhh... !
nahhh......

bbls....
ilovedavin <3 ahhahaa...
alwaysss...

but i like you o___0

Not ready !

The things you do boy just makes me happy. Really happpy :)
When im with you, i feel so happy just seeing you. When we touch i feel so happy. When we kiss i feel so dang happy nothin' else mattersz. When this happens i always feel like were back together again But were not, it's because were both not ready to be together again in a RELATIONSHIP ! idk if there's a differents haha, but i guess you can say where takin' things really sloww. N' i like it that way. Buhhh fuckk whats so confusing is that i like you.. and i don't want to hurt you. I wanna be with davin again, but i wanna be with you. "What's a man to do When he's loving two But he can't keep his heart In two different places"
I like him, but i love you...........Torn in between you TWO. I love you davin, you was always there for me, n' i love being with you. You changed me into someone different in good ways. I like you, you can make me smile and do somethings that i really like about you. you idkkk damnn'

I HAVE NO IDEAL WHAT I WANT

I have no ideal,

What i want =(
n' it stresses me a wh0le lot..... i can't handle this shit anymore, it's always gettin' to me when i know it isn't suppose to be. I miss you so dang much n' i like you yes wheeeeww i admited it i like you ! that's the truth i never told anyone till' i knew it was right to know that i like you, But the thing is i still love you hmph. My best friend told me why aer you doing to this to me, making me feel like yours again over n' over........But like we both said or she said, you d0n't know what you want, you still love me but you just don't want to be with me. & i find that reallly trueee. I think you do still have feelins' for me still love me, but you just don't want to be with me. See you just d0n't know what you want. N' i don't either, i mean i like this boy but your in the way. I love you a lot, i still do. But i like him. I can't have two people to myslef i have to only choose ONE ! and i don't know what to choose, ? .........

I just have no ideal, what i want

Davin, MY LOVE DON'T STOP !!!!!
just like that song.

Goshh.

Wtfuckkk ?! i fricken can't stop thinking about you, missing you, loving you, I fuckin' still l0ve you =( i guesss i still need you, still want you. I miss you so dang much baby :( I had bettter days so much better days. N' now today im breaking down and realizing i can't even let you go...It's to dang hard....Omgosh im like going so crazy right now. I woke up cryin' knowing you werent even mines. Damn' i miss 'US' i really do. We still say our 'I LOVE YOUS' every single fuckin' day. n' i fuckin' mean that shit from the bottom of my heart. Ahhhhh idkkkk my head hurtss as fucccck

ahhhh blahhh.

Someday.

You'll REALIZE !!!!!!

Baby.....Love

when you love someone so much, you need to learn to let them go at times to prove if you really love the person a lot.


:]
For you i will !

Haaaa?

"The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring. "Shawna Waltemyer"

3 sess'

Woooooo Hooooo ! so goood today ;)
i love'd it, spent time with the ex-b0yfriend .
it was so much fun hahhaa, we watched twilight n' yeeeah so on n' on :D

i love that boyyy, i still love him <3
damn' hahahaaha Muuuuuuuuuuuah i love you davin forevaaa' n' evaaa'
He's the FUCKIN' best i evaaa' HAD !

Maybeee one day we can git back together hehe, but as of right now things are getting better between US, i mean still feels like im your 'girl' but yeahsz hahaha ....

I LOVE YOU <3

<3

Muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuah
I LOVE YOU ! <3
hahahah ;p

c0nfused.

I've been that way for way to looong. i seriously have no idea what i want -___- i really miss being with you so dang much, it's so hard letting you go. i need you, i want you, i wanna try all over again with you =( this is so hard for me, it really is. hmmmm' i just can't handle n0t talkin' to you, i always tell myself not to talk to you but' i end up d0ing it. Everywhere i go , whatever i see, whatever i hear, there's always s0mething that reminds me of you. It's like your with me where ever i go, n' it true cos' your in my heart where ever i go. Ughhh i just d0nt know.

=(

i love you davin <3

For 'Love'

So what do you do when the person you love is the reason behind all your pain? When things aren't the same anymore & you constantly see yourself striving to maintain a perfect relationship? When you no longer trust that person because their words continuously contradict their actions? Have you ever felt this unbearable pain in your chest, but think to yourself that the pain is worth it because in the end you are still with that person? Whenever they are out, you have a million of ideas just clustered in the back of your mind. You try your best to trust them, but for some reason you just can't. You want them to do little sweet meaningful things, but yet they don't. You find yourself so infatuated with this thing we call "love" that you isolate yourself from everyone & everything you once loved. But in the end, is it really worth all the trouble & sacrifice?



............you were worth the pain, & you still are.

.............

MY LIFE.........

I never thought,

it would be so HARD letting you go.............

It's so hard to lose the one you love
To finally have to say goodbye
You try to be strong but the pain keeps holdin' on
And all that you can do is cry
Deep within your heart you know it's time to move on
When the fairy tale that you once knew is gone