Someone told me that someday you will realize that you shouldve never let me go, although i hurted you much more than you hurted me. But you broke my heart even more. I gave you chances you gave me chances. That person told me that if you forgave me for cheating on you, you'll forgive everything we have been through, he said you forgave me because you truly did love me, the type of love that me and you had was like no other's....Getting hurt by you made me a stronger person, and i thank you for this. You helped me find my independent in me. Im going to try and not let this pain get to me anymore, im stronger than this pain. He had told me that there's better things in life than just one boy....He had told me to just stay single in high school and have fun. because i wouldnt have to think about that person im with, i wont be on lockdown, i could go where ever i wanted to go, do whatever i can do without any interruptions. But then again he said that i'll feel lonely sometimes but hey were still young and there's going to be better things out there for me once i grow up. I'll let things be what it is although it will hurt me a lot. He told me if i loved you i would let you go and not talk to you if you try and do talk to me, he told me that if your talking to me it's because your thinking about me, and maybe miss me....... But i won't let those things get to me anymore, he told me im stronger than all of this. He said that im only hurting myself cos' im still in love with you. He's saying im really confused because of the things you did to me that other day. It's because your making me think about a lot of things, breaking my heart even more. He said one day you will realize that i really did love you like no one ever did, and i hope that one day you will realize you lost someone to great that hurted you but did whatever it took to get you back again, you'll realize trying to get over me didnt work cos' you actually did love me. He said im strong, but i told him i weak, he said im only weak because im letting myself getting hurt & that's true. He said im making things so hard for myself because of LOVE. It's like im desperate for you and i think i am, its just your love thats why. He said just leting you go would be the best thing to do to make you REALIZE.
&&&& i hope you realize, i truly did love you, i never meant to hurt you and im sorry from the bottom of my heart. so i hope you realize.
thanks for everything davin. you made me a stronger person, although its gonna be hard letting go ill try just so i can be happy once again. where's the good in goodbye, i don't wanna say goodbyee NEVER. I really hope thing go well for you davin. I'll always be here for you davin, i always will .......your my best friend ;] & i'll always love you.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Do you ?
Ahhhh, talk about confusing :/ You still make me feel like im your 'girl'. Im so confused with youu, i still love you. Do you still love me ? But then you like her ? but then you go n' do things and make me think twice in the end do you really still love me. We both couldnt help it and just did it, you know why ? huh ? cos we still love eachother thats why. and i know you still love me, but you don't want to get hurt anymore, you wanna have fun. Look how much space im giving you........Yesterday seeing you made me so happy. Cos your always the one that can always put a big smile on my face :D i honestly don't know what you want, and i don't think you know what you want also. To be with me again and prove to you im different n' did change or be with HER* if you love something, set it free; if it comes backs it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was. i like this quote, i set you free so good things can fall into place, and it is a little, but about this quote is the part where "if it doesn't, it never was." Damn' that means we weren't meant to be blahhh, idk i know me and you were meant to be. We loved' eachother so much, we hurted eachother to much, but it showed that we did really care about eachother.....i just wish we could fall in love again && but nobody can understand the love and bond that we both share together.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
MY MISTAKE.
..........Is never forgotten.
You say you cannot forget
And you aren't ready to forgive
But I need your friendship
More than you'll even know
I need you there to live
Without you by my side today
Life's been going, oh so slow
I miss your calls
Our endless talks
The places we would go
You can't even bear to look at me,
And I know my mistake
For because of one night,
And a few thoughtless actions,
When you saw me you ran and hid
I know we cannot take it back
As much as we would like to
But we could forget
And start all over
Just friends, that's me and you
If time is what you need,
Then I guess that's what you'll get
But I need you there for me soon,
My friend.
You say you cannot forget
And you aren't ready to forgive
But I need your friendship
More than you'll even know
I need you there to live
Without you by my side today
Life's been going, oh so slow
I miss your calls
Our endless talks
The places we would go
You can't even bear to look at me,
And I know my mistake
For because of one night,
And a few thoughtless actions,
When you saw me you ran and hid
I know we cannot take it back
As much as we would like to
But we could forget
And start all over
Just friends, that's me and you
If time is what you need,
Then I guess that's what you'll get
But I need you there for me soon,
My friend.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Dwelling.
I hate dwelling on all the times we had =( it fucking hurts to dang much, dying inside and out but not showing it, cos' im not trying for you to ler my gaurd down, but i guess im fucking failing on this shit i fucking hate it to dang muhhh, i don't want this anymoreee.....seeing you like her and shit, seems like i don't care but trust deep deep down inside HURTING , breaking apart -___-
...........you took our forever and ever AWAY.
...........you took our forever and ever AWAY.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Why?
........FUCK THE BULLSHIT.
BUT STILL I FUCK'IN LOVE YOU AND SHIT SERIOUS >_____<
WHY IS IT LIKE THIS. HAHA DAMN' IM JUST FOOLING MYSELF OVER AGAIN.
BUT STILL I FUCK'IN LOVE YOU AND SHIT SERIOUS >_____<
WHY IS IT LIKE THIS. HAHA DAMN' IM JUST FOOLING MYSELF OVER AGAIN.
Friday, April 24, 2009
S.C.W.
Today Shoulda. Coulda. Woulda. BEEEN
1 Year & 1 Month "/ = 13Months.
being with you.......
Best Friends forevaaaa'
so HAPPPY 13 Months best friend..
blahhhh.
IMY; & ILY;
1 Year & 1 Month "/ = 13Months.
being with you.......
Best Friends forevaaaa'
so HAPPPY 13 Months best friend..
blahhhh.
IMY; & ILY;
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Wow.
"Welll seee, at lease you told him and not keeept it a secret .Thaas good that you tell him errythang, even yur mistakes =) I do that tooo, i tell Timmay errrythang even if itll make him upset cos as long as im not keepin no secrets he'll always love me (;"
^^^^^^^
Isn't that cute in a way haha, my cuzzo' is so lucky/BLESSED :D hahaha.
^^^^^^^
Isn't that cute in a way haha, my cuzzo' is so lucky/BLESSED :D hahaha.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Sometimes.
"We need to face the hard part of reality even though it'll hurt. But in time it will get better and fall into place the way its meant to fall."
in other words.
TIME TO TIME:
"If you love someone, let it go. If it comes back, it was always yours."
IMY DKVV
I'll never give up on "OUR LOVE"
.....NEVER !
in other words.
TIME TO TIME:
"If you love someone, let it go. If it comes back, it was always yours."
IMY DKVV
I'll never give up on "OUR LOVE"
.....NEVER !
Friday, April 17, 2009
Breakdown.
Davin i hope you take this to heart, i put a lot into this. It's not really organized, i jumped from one thing to another haha i may repeat myself over and over haha but just read, and i hope you appreciate this...........
Selfish yesss i can be. I notice that, damn' i mean it's really your choice to like someone and i know you do. It's so sad that you do like someone. There's absolutely nothing i can do about it. i can't stop someone from liking someone else. i can't make someone like me back. i can't turn back the hands of time. i can't just sit here and wish for things to be the way they used to be. Once i knew that you liked her my heart dropped like outta no where it's like someone pulled it out n' just crushed it into pieces. Im hurting oh so much, you dont even know foreals. I mean i understand that you want to see other people but like damn' why ? I wanted to work things out with you to make things better, to prove to you that i will do want you want me to do to not put this relationship to an end. 1 Year like nothing. But i guess it did, you didnt even take the time to try and make things to work out ONCE AGAIN but i guess you gave up on me, fell outta love with me, couldn't put up with my bullshit anymore. Im afraid you will fall in love again like seriously. You had a type of love i NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER had, i miss being cared by you, Being hold by you, Being kissed by you, and most importantly i miss the feeling of being loved by you. I ADMIT I CHEATED, don't know why i did it but i do regret it, nothing that i can do or say can change it, come back please. Im afraid of loosing you completly, i already lost you as my boyfriend n' i dont want to lose you anymore not at all. But see you were the person that RE-OPENED my heart and proved that love was here for me, this is why your my first love. You broked my curse like how i broke yours. Now that we arent together, my heart shattered into pieces waiting till maybe one day you can put it back together again. Hmmm i really miss you a lot. I really do, i miss sleeping on the phone with you everynight. I miss you being in love with me, i miss you being mines. I MISS YOU period ! I loved you for who you were, you were never a show to anyone. I loved you completely, you gave me this unconditional feeling inside that feels so good, Never in my life had I felt this way for someone like I do for you. Ive been happy latly but i would be more happier if you were by my side, but now that you like someone, it's like everything is done you've move on from me that hurts so much......But you moved on really fast we only broke up this month n' this month you like someone ? hmmmm why ?! why so fast ? Makes me think did you really care about me ? damn' it would take me months and months just to try and move on from my first love, but to you it's like wow damn' wth?!.........Im sorry i care and love you so much ! Why do i care so much ? There's many reasons why. You should know why, and if you don't damn wth?! your a really sepcial person to me honeslty. You say you arent worth it, but you really are, you mean a whole lot to me. Your my better half. I feel like im in a mess being without you, people notice that about me nowaday. Im sorta not the person i once was when i was WITH YOU. People tell me "What ever happen to that girl that always had a smile on her face, n' i knew it wasnt fake" ? I answered "She's gone, maybe just maybe she will come back" I put YOU before myself, but then i can be selfish and think of ONLY myself yes aino that, but i really do care a lot about you than myself. Tell me not i SACRIFICED a whole lot for you. I lied and lied just so i could see you and be with you because i loved you, i cared so much about you. I couldnt even handle a day being without you. I always made time for you, i always did have time for you, when im with you nothing and NO ONE else mattered, cos' the person next to me(you)was all that mattered to me to the most. Hmph the things i did for our love. You made me the happiest girl evaaa' and now idk anymore...... Losing you means I would be losing a very significant part of my life. and i lost you. My heart holds a special place for you. I'd be empty without you, nothing. I can't picture me without you anymore. It's utterly impossible. But look now ? im not even with you anymore, n' it's hurting so dang much. Im really sorrry for anything and everything, ive done to ever hurt you.... Im in a mess being without, a lot of people notice it. I can't conceal it. Its like Im silently screaming, Even though Im totally surrounded, I feel like Im in here by myself....It's like im dying inside, crying inside and no one knows it but me. Im stuggling with everything......i need you back baby. It's like me and you didn't even try We just said goodbye We let this love here die And never looked back In my mind, I'm still questioning why Promises turn to lies Feelings bottled inside When the truth be told I......I'm still wondering What if? What if? What if we would've worked out I believe we could've worked out If we worked a little harder Still imagining What if? What if? What if we would've worked out I believe we could've worked out Worked a little harder Yeah, if we worked a little harder...... You tell me to give up on you, but like what i told you.... NEVER DID & NEVER WILL. and that's one thing im not gonna fail in. No matter how hard it's gonna take ill do whatever it takes just to get you back in my arms once again. Baby my heart ain't complete, you got me all up on my knees, cos' i dont wanna lose your love.... you finally gave up on us. you gave up on us. that hurt to know you didn't wanna try anymore. i was so lost and still am when you gave up i was frustrated and hurt crying and crying. i shouldn't set myself up for pain, once more. why am i still hoping you'll catch me, when i know you won't? Just please take this to heart baby. I really do want us back together again. I'll prove to you ill be better...............Truth be told, you are THE ONE. I love you with all my heart, and hope our love can happen once again. I guess I'm still not completely over you. I love you Davin. Always did. n' always WILL !.........iloveyou
Selfish yesss i can be. I notice that, damn' i mean it's really your choice to like someone and i know you do. It's so sad that you do like someone. There's absolutely nothing i can do about it. i can't stop someone from liking someone else. i can't make someone like me back. i can't turn back the hands of time. i can't just sit here and wish for things to be the way they used to be. Once i knew that you liked her my heart dropped like outta no where it's like someone pulled it out n' just crushed it into pieces. Im hurting oh so much, you dont even know foreals. I mean i understand that you want to see other people but like damn' why ? I wanted to work things out with you to make things better, to prove to you that i will do want you want me to do to not put this relationship to an end. 1 Year like nothing. But i guess it did, you didnt even take the time to try and make things to work out ONCE AGAIN but i guess you gave up on me, fell outta love with me, couldn't put up with my bullshit anymore. Im afraid you will fall in love again like seriously. You had a type of love i NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER had, i miss being cared by you, Being hold by you, Being kissed by you, and most importantly i miss the feeling of being loved by you. I ADMIT I CHEATED, don't know why i did it but i do regret it, nothing that i can do or say can change it, come back please. Im afraid of loosing you completly, i already lost you as my boyfriend n' i dont want to lose you anymore not at all. But see you were the person that RE-OPENED my heart and proved that love was here for me, this is why your my first love. You broked my curse like how i broke yours. Now that we arent together, my heart shattered into pieces waiting till maybe one day you can put it back together again. Hmmm i really miss you a lot. I really do, i miss sleeping on the phone with you everynight. I miss you being in love with me, i miss you being mines. I MISS YOU period ! I loved you for who you were, you were never a show to anyone. I loved you completely, you gave me this unconditional feeling inside that feels so good, Never in my life had I felt this way for someone like I do for you. Ive been happy latly but i would be more happier if you were by my side, but now that you like someone, it's like everything is done you've move on from me that hurts so much......But you moved on really fast we only broke up this month n' this month you like someone ? hmmmm why ?! why so fast ? Makes me think did you really care about me ? damn' it would take me months and months just to try and move on from my first love, but to you it's like wow damn' wth?!.........Im sorry i care and love you so much ! Why do i care so much ? There's many reasons why. You should know why, and if you don't damn wth?! your a really sepcial person to me honeslty. You say you arent worth it, but you really are, you mean a whole lot to me. Your my better half. I feel like im in a mess being without you, people notice that about me nowaday. Im sorta not the person i once was when i was WITH YOU. People tell me "What ever happen to that girl that always had a smile on her face, n' i knew it wasnt fake" ? I answered "She's gone, maybe just maybe she will come back" I put YOU before myself, but then i can be selfish and think of ONLY myself yes aino that, but i really do care a lot about you than myself. Tell me not i SACRIFICED a whole lot for you. I lied and lied just so i could see you and be with you because i loved you, i cared so much about you. I couldnt even handle a day being without you. I always made time for you, i always did have time for you, when im with you nothing and NO ONE else mattered, cos' the person next to me(you)was all that mattered to me to the most. Hmph the things i did for our love. You made me the happiest girl evaaa' and now idk anymore...... Losing you means I would be losing a very significant part of my life. and i lost you. My heart holds a special place for you. I'd be empty without you, nothing. I can't picture me without you anymore. It's utterly impossible. But look now ? im not even with you anymore, n' it's hurting so dang much. Im really sorrry for anything and everything, ive done to ever hurt you.... Im in a mess being without, a lot of people notice it. I can't conceal it. Its like Im silently screaming, Even though Im totally surrounded, I feel like Im in here by myself....It's like im dying inside, crying inside and no one knows it but me. Im stuggling with everything......i need you back baby. It's like me and you didn't even try We just said goodbye We let this love here die And never looked back In my mind, I'm still questioning why Promises turn to lies Feelings bottled inside When the truth be told I......I'm still wondering What if? What if? What if we would've worked out I believe we could've worked out If we worked a little harder Still imagining What if? What if? What if we would've worked out I believe we could've worked out Worked a little harder Yeah, if we worked a little harder...... You tell me to give up on you, but like what i told you.... NEVER DID & NEVER WILL. and that's one thing im not gonna fail in. No matter how hard it's gonna take ill do whatever it takes just to get you back in my arms once again. Baby my heart ain't complete, you got me all up on my knees, cos' i dont wanna lose your love.... you finally gave up on us. you gave up on us. that hurt to know you didn't wanna try anymore. i was so lost and still am when you gave up i was frustrated and hurt crying and crying. i shouldn't set myself up for pain, once more. why am i still hoping you'll catch me, when i know you won't? Just please take this to heart baby. I really do want us back together again. I'll prove to you ill be better...............Truth be told, you are THE ONE. I love you with all my heart, and hope our love can happen once again. I guess I'm still not completely over you. I love you Davin. Always did. n' always WILL !.........iloveyou
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
This Bitch!
Bettter not be fucking talking about HIM* psssst fucking stupid bitch betta step the fuck away. Ainokea if he ain't mines no moree bitchhh you best believe n' bounce. Ughhh you try get with him oh hell no ughhh so fucking messed up BIG TIME. Yahhh i admit immma' get jealous shiiit but fuckkk im getting so fricken pissed right now -___- immma' start ballin tears D; fuckin' bullshit this kinee. Better not be him you talking about girl. Erghhhhhhhhhhh FUCK YOU !!!!!!
peace !
peace !
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Baby your LOST !
you've lost a precious dime, n' you just went off to a penny...........
tsk tsk tskkkkkkkk... haaa'
Or in this other bitches words.
a dime is what you had, but a worthless penny is what you got.
.......i thought the feelings would last forever but instead it became a never ever
tsk tsk tskkkkkkkk... haaa'
Or in this other bitches words.
a dime is what you had, but a worthless penny is what you got.
.......i thought the feelings would last forever but instead it became a never ever
Friday, April 10, 2009
How?
Am i going to prove to be better for you again ? How to make you feel the way you once felt before ? How to make things good between us. How to get us back together once again?
I just miss yoou so much, seeing you yesterday made me really happy, but hearing those things from you make me cry, made you cry. Why did it end up like this? I wish we could back to the days we use to be. I loved how we where together and did things that werent suppose to happen. But like i said it's cos' you still love me but not IN LOVE with me. I just wish you could feel the same way again. I miss US, i miss YOU ! But all i can do is wait, wait till things to hopfully get better. I want things to get better between US not including no one else. I dont wanna see other people it would feel so different. My life without you is so different really different.
All im saying is i hope you can feel the way you felt before, i love you n' miss you baby <3.
ALWAYS !
Im not giving up on you, never did NEVER WILL !
I just miss yoou so much, seeing you yesterday made me really happy, but hearing those things from you make me cry, made you cry. Why did it end up like this? I wish we could back to the days we use to be. I loved how we where together and did things that werent suppose to happen. But like i said it's cos' you still love me but not IN LOVE with me. I just wish you could feel the same way again. I miss US, i miss YOU ! But all i can do is wait, wait till things to hopfully get better. I want things to get better between US not including no one else. I dont wanna see other people it would feel so different. My life without you is so different really different.
All im saying is i hope you can feel the way you felt before, i love you n' miss you baby <3.
ALWAYS !
Im not giving up on you, never did NEVER WILL !
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
So there's
This boy yes Davin Viernes <3
i miss that boy so much !!!
I won't evaa' forget you since day one :D
Oh how i wish i learned from my mistakes, but baby im willing to wait for you, if it's want you want to know i'll get you back. But it will be hard. I'll do it for you though i'll always love you babe.
I Miss You & I Love You.
i miss that boy so much !!!
I won't evaa' forget you since day one :D
Oh how i wish i learned from my mistakes, but baby im willing to wait for you, if it's want you want to know i'll get you back. But it will be hard. I'll do it for you though i'll always love you babe.
I Miss You & I Love You.
Monday, April 6, 2009
Ergh.
I really do miss US. Hurting as FUCK !. ugh teachers comming bye.
"I wish we could go back to the days, we use to be"
"I wish we could go back to the days, we use to be"
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Missing you.
I MISS 'US' 032408.
a tear comes to mind, when i think of you
and remember the time when our friendship was new.
a gentle smile centered on your face,
and i knew that then was the time and place,
to kiss you,
i did and felt a tick back in my heart.
i thought we’d be forever and never part,
but now we have come to a fork in the road,
where we must no longer carry each other’s load,
let the burden off our shoulders and not leave a scar,
for the paths we are taking are very far apart.
i will remember always the places we went,
and cherish forever the time we’ve spent.
so now is the time where i say goodbye,
spend one last minute lost in your eyes.
as much as i know that we can’t stay,
i hope our paths will cross again some other day…
- derek del barrio
a tear comes to mind, when i think of you
and remember the time when our friendship was new.
a gentle smile centered on your face,
and i knew that then was the time and place,
to kiss you,
i did and felt a tick back in my heart.
i thought we’d be forever and never part,
but now we have come to a fork in the road,
where we must no longer carry each other’s load,
let the burden off our shoulders and not leave a scar,
for the paths we are taking are very far apart.
i will remember always the places we went,
and cherish forever the time we’ve spent.
so now is the time where i say goodbye,
spend one last minute lost in your eyes.
as much as i know that we can’t stay,
i hope our paths will cross again some other day…
- derek del barrio
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Holy FUCK!
Its april already ? damn' been slacking on blogs seriously hahahha. n' Holy FUCK. my baby's default oooooweeee heccca fineeee hahhaha.... OKKAY WTF?!
anyways my spring break is going goood, been goign out mostly err'dayy wooohoo YAY. so funn haha. ewww school is almost here damn' at least we have a couple months of school yeeno YAY not choke months ughh thats so errking. going summer school sucks but i want to yay. haha hardly gonna see babe but he'll COME TO ME hah like how i came to him that whole fricken summer. so its your turn babe hahahahah......
anyways im outt :D
catch chu laters !
anyways my spring break is going goood, been goign out mostly err'dayy wooohoo YAY. so funn haha. ewww school is almost here damn' at least we have a couple months of school yeeno YAY not choke months ughh thats so errking. going summer school sucks but i want to yay. haha hardly gonna see babe but he'll COME TO ME hah like how i came to him that whole fricken summer. so its your turn babe hahahahah......
anyways im outt :D
catch chu laters !
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